Just wait..

TGF him completely turning around a situation. Two weeks ago it had me on my knees sobbing, wondering why this world was so unfair, why being a good and generous person just gets you taken for a ride...

Yet he turned it around.. he gave me the ability to fight this for myself.. and now the outcome is so different.. I don't know how He changed it.. but He did.

Thank you God.

Albeit more slowly

TGF still being able to run...

TGF Love.. however painful

Love is an unconditional commitment to an imperfect person - (Bishop Eddie Long)

Biggest decision ever made

TGF the great news I got today. Have been praying and praying its the right path. Really feels like His plan is coming together at last.

I have plans for you... for a hope and a future...

Is He keeping His promises at last?

Don't throw sticks Harley

Could have been a lot worse

TGF His help today. TGF hope for the future.

Rips my heart out

Am absolutely gutted that I'm not part of the Music Team at Emmanuel anymore. I really can't believe that this is what God wants. I'm so ready to give up even believing he is there. Have suffered too much at the hands of Christians to believe in a loving God.

Poster on my wall says "I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope"

Absolutely no indication from my life that that verse is true.

Where are you?

So why did God make me different so that people hate me for what I am?

And why in a school that 'Says no to Bullying' are those adults with the most power the worst bullies?

Why am I going through all this crap at the hands of others? I know Jesus said it wouldn't be an easy ride.. but this is not because of my faith.. its because others have all the power and can get what they want.. where are you God?