God, I'm scared

Please, make sure I don't end up that way. 

TGF mum making me buy a new mattress...although may hold off on the TGF till I've slept on it. 

TGF being able to help Ma get a bike.. And help her achieve her goals

TGF being able to get rid of stuff lying around parents house to make my own plans work. Big screen treadmill hehe 

Father, please answer my prayers soon, I've spent so many years waiting. And I can't figure out what she wants, so bring me a friend like she used to be. Please. 

Meambling

TGF being able to do a Parkrun and not having to go to work after

TGF a nice stroll round Chatsworth estate finding several caches. 

TGF yummy Chinese scoff. 

Team

TGF having my very own peg and birthday balloon.

TGF being able to bike to work. 

TGF it being downhill to Go

Playtime

TGF playtime at Stompers with nephews and Jamos' kids

TGF my first smile from Jesse

TGF Lego delivering my Tie Fighter, after three months, and to Mum's house. Strange. 

Geocaching at Felbrigg

TGF a grand day out caching with family 

TGF lego for my birthday (Ghost from Chalkie)

TGF knowing lots about Winnie the Pooh (board games with Ma and Pa) and laughing at each other's moments of stupidity, and getting "I was born.." Stuck in our heads 

PB!

TGF getting a surprise PB at Braunstone parkrun... First ever sub 21 min 5k. 

TGF having no more Saturday shifts at Go... Am free to do stuff :-)

TGF Bumble getting me to Norfolk home yet again

Not finishing

TGF still having a job at Go

TGF iPad fixing itself (via prayer)

TGF only having one more Saturday at Go

Understanding

TGF the medical appointment being about help and understanding, not being sacked before I start

TGF prayer and wisdom from a mature Christian

TGF being able to chat to Shaun 

Getting somewhere

TGF getting up to date with my accounts... Aside from the small issue of how to pay for my bike!

TGF a friend randomly dropping in for a cuppa. Have really missed that. 

TGF how much the Boococks make me laugh. Will miss playing games with Clare... But then there is nothing to stop me going over as a friend, if she'll let me. 

Speed

TGF my speedy new bike.. Would have been v late on the borrowed one.. 4 mins early on mine 

TGF looking forward to reading my new book

TGF getting things done, although the To Do list is frighteningly big and ever growing 

Jonathan

Word of the day yesterday... In your twilight years, will you look back and feel you've spent your life struggling to fulfil other people's expectations? Or know that you lived to the fullest by striving to fulfil your God-given dream? Think about it now, while there's still time to change direction.

Word of the day today.... As believers, the Bible tells us not to '...look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen...' (2 Corinthians 4:18 NKJV). 'Now' faith stakes its claim on 'something...even if we do not see it' (Hebrews 11:1 NCV). Paul says, '...we walk by faith, not by sight' (2 Corinthians 5:7 NKJV).

 'When we believe that reality is confined to what we see, we become trapped into thinking the only truth is what we see. We become prisoners of our own perceptions; we cease walking in faith... For those who walk by faith, appearances are never the ultimate reality... Reality extends beyond what you can see...the things we do not see are eternal [time and circumstance do not diminish or alter them] (2 Corinthians 4:18 NIV). Even though things may appear bad, God is working things out for our good (Romans 8:28). He knows how the story ends, so fix your eyes on the unseen and not on what you see.'

Last night I was given Jonathan Livingston Seagull. 

Last night the bible study encouraged us to put faith in God, despite human circumstances. It encouraged us to become the person God made us to be. He is the lantern to our feet and we just have to worry about the next step. 

Who is the person he wants me to be? It seems that the more I become that, the further I get from my own hearts desires being even a possibility. The more I feel that I would have to change in order to have just one person, that wouldn't be ashamed of me in public. 

Contradictory

Please God... Someone who isn't ashamed of me in public, but seems to care in private. 

Why? Why did you give me hope, then take it away.... And leave me with what I begged you not to do to me?

Speed

TGF opening up Gladis on the wooshy hill. 

TGF getting even a few things scanned and recycled. A small start, but a start nonetheless. 

TGF hugs from Dad 2

Just please...

Father. Please. I just want to be important to just one person. 

Just please send me just one person. Someone with an actual, real heart. 

Please. 

You filled me with love. 

It's killing me. 

Please. Just someone that wants me to care about them. 

Tired out

TGF having enough fleece blankets etc in bumble to keep warm through a very cold night. 

TGF getting picked up by Bear

TGF it being the last Sunday shift

TGF a much needed bath

TGF being able to try to help my favorite person. Praying hard that neither of us have arthritis and God will heal us both of painful joints and creaks and cracks

Parkrun Win

TGF being really good at running downhill ( and winning my first Parkrun... First female, ninth overall).

TGF post run banjos and naps, even if mean people take photos

TGF being cosy with a book in Bumble

Need to change

Don't really want to TGF, apart from cosy Bumble. I really want to ask God why he created me like this. Why the hell did he put me in a girl's body? Why did he make me so I'd never be good enough for anyone to love me? Why did he give me a heart? 

Too good for me

Actually feeling too blessed and worried that something horrible is going to happen as a result but...

TGF dancing in the boot cage to cheesey tunes in the iPod in a little world of my own 

TGF sam and all his wisdom and patience sorting out my bike

TGF my new bike!!! It's awesome. Far too good for me. Way better a bike than I ever dreamed of. Slightly concerned about paying for it...so praying insurance comes through! 

TGF getting phone sorted with little fuss... Nice guy in 3 shop. 

TGF managing to get tasks done instead of falling asleep

TGF time with Rachel. Not following what we were watching at all, but properly laughing at the brilliant put downs.. Bum face... Frosty knickers... The one we can't quite remember about punting from the Cambridge end. 

Word of the Day said...

To be grateful for three things each day. So let's start the TGF Blog again. 

Today's first one is that they have made an App for Blogger, so I can now do this easily from iPad and phone. 

Yesterday's...

TGF all my army kit - that I have everything I need, that I got it all (nearly) sorted last night, and for all the help my Mum gave me before my first annual camp three years ago. 

TGF my new phone - even though I can't get the sim working the phone is awesome and I can still message my favourite person and that the old phone still works so it was the kick up the bum to sort the upgrade, but not a complete nightmare. 

TGF my friend Tim - that we are still there for each other and can still encourage each other and that he is exercising again and feeling happier